TOO MUCH OF A GOOD THING SUCKS ASS

Sup Fellas, and lady fellas!

Cole here after a looooooooooong time being away from the site. Here to spill some brain juice all over ya with my thoughts. Sit back, Relax and SCREAM IN AGONISING PAIN! …. if you just stubbed your toe.

know what pain I hate…. that pain you get when you’re riding a bike and you slip off the pedal and it whips round and whacks you! you know the one! man… hate that..

ANYWAY. So today I wanted to kinda talk about how I’m finding it difficult to juggle too many ideas.

Seems like an odd thing to struggle with but I find that I will want to do something one day, and have my heart set on it… but then the next day have a whole new direction of what I want to do with myself. Its exhausting…

Some of the things I want to do are (but not limited to) making video content, making music, writing a book, drawing a comic, learning a language, learning a few subjects, doing fitness and martial arts, flipping, parkour and much much more.

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Every day I seem to wake up with a new idea, and new desire to want to pursue. My mind is like an idea salad. But see I already hear ya. “Cole, just pick the thing you want to do most and focus on that”

I’d love to dear reader… I really would… but sadly I cannot. You see I used to have this unmeasurable passion for filmmaking. It was my whole life and my identity. I made ALL the films. I said yes to anything that involved picking up a camera (almost including a porno once, but that’s a story for another time)


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These days I rarely touch my camera, which is sad because I was so obsessed with it once upon a time. Don’t get me wrong I do have days where the spark and passion to film comes back…. but all it takes is one nights sleep for that desire to be completely stripped away. At the start of the year I set myself the task of creating two videos a month for a series I coined “10,000 hours”. Where I would document things in my life in a pretty cool way. I made one real episode. My 2 videos a month became 1 video a month, then 6 months passed. I have made one real episode.


Then let’s talk about OURVIBES. Since April and I went to beautiful Amsterdam our mindset completely changed and we took a MASSIVE step back from it. We stopped posting on Insta, we rarely posted blogs and we got very lazy keeping up with anything online. I think taking a step back from it encouraged us to try new things. April found a passion for Yoga and I…. well I’m working on that.

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The thing is… I don’t want OVA to be another thing in my life that I slack at and give up on. I spent YEARS addicted to and working at my youtube and filmmaking career and lifestyle. All of which I gave up on.

Don’t get me wrong. I am not sitting here moping and thinking I am a failure. I’ve made content I am proud of and successfully ran my company. But what I am doing is struggling to decide which direction I am heading to next.


Picture this. You are sat at a table, you ain’t eaten all day and you are staaaarving for some delicious grub, in front of you is your all time top 3 favourite foods…. but you can only have one and the one you pick is all you will be able to eat from now on. How do you choose? because sure, you may crave pizza the most just now… but will you crave it more than the burgers tomorrow?? This is where my mind is at with all these projects. I so desperately want to dive into something and become completely addicted to it… but I am spoilt for choice.

“Cole the solution is super simple, just do what you feel like doing that day duh”

I hear you, I wish my brain would hear you too. You see I have this super annoying issue where I will make a decision. Then because I have decided something I question if it’s the right choice. So say I decide one day I want to make a film and so I plan it and write ideas, I will (during that process) start to question if this is truly the direction I want to focus on … because what if tomorrow it’s music that draws my attention.

I don’t know.

MY SOLUTION-ISH

One thing I have come to learn is that I have a valuable asset which helps…. Time.

Realistically I can do EVERYTHING on my list because I have the time to do it all if I can only find a way to focus.

So until I figure out how to do that…. I’ll just keep on keeping on I guess.

I hope you guys are feeling focused and well!

Feel free to leave me any advice in the comments.

If you are wondering if this is the return of regular blogs… I don’t know… Maybe? Depends where my head is at… It’s just nice to type out my thoughts for once….

Until next time.. Later Days

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