Scared to Start

Well hello! It’s April here, typing up our first blog on the new website.. isn’t this exciting! It actually feels kinda weird typing out a blog again.. it’s been far too long!

Which sort of brings me to the point of this blog.

Scared to Start

I think it’s ironic that it’s taken me so long to write this as today I’m gonna talk about being scared to start projects and why it’s been so long since our last blog.

As you may or may not know, Cole and I recently released our apparel store (PLUG PLUG PLUG) but while we were busy trying to get the launch of it off to a good start, we struggled to keep up with OurVibes, and in particular I struggled to keep up with life.

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What’s the hippy haps

We all have addictions; wether it’s alcohol, drugs, gaming, but it turns out I’m addicted to work. I don’t know where to draw the line or when to take time for myself. If I have an idea I’ll put my everything into it even if it kills me in the process. So, while we were launching OurVibes Apparel, I was putting my everything into the launch, keeping on top of Ov content, Instagram and my own fitness journey. Needless to say, I got kinda sick.

Turns out my body couldn’t handle the pressure of it all and my eyes were the first thing to turn against me. After visiting the optician who I told,

“I think I’m going blind!”

she checked me out and told me that actually, “You’re eyes are just real tired.. Maybe you should take a break.”

I took a step back from constant office days staring at screens, wore sunglasses for the good part of a week and my eyes gradually got better.

But my obsession to keep working gnawed at the back of my mind. I was heading down a slippery slope with the fitness aspect of my life, constantly checking my body fat, convincing myself that one slip up in my diet had made me gain a ton of weight. (this topic in itself is a blog post… but maybe some other time).

Between this and forever checking up on Instagram, making every spare second I had about analytics and Insta posts. I quickly realised that I couldn’t continue like this.

Cole as always was the one who pulled me back from the tide that was very quickly sweeping me out to sea. I took some much needed time for myself. We agreed that Instagram would become a shared platform and we would stop posting in such a structured way.. We would just be ourselves. Self care is super important and that’s why Ourvibes came to a bit of a halt.

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But why am I telling you this?..

Well, because I’m scared to start this again.

I think in some respects we all do this. wether it's making up excuses to not going out with friends or having that great idea but there’s always some reason why you can’t do it today. I want to write more blogs, I want to create video content and I want more than anything to post more on Instagram but I’m so terrified of loosing control again and becoming obsessed that it scares the hell out of me.

But…

I’m a firm believer in doing what scares you and not living your life in fear of failure. So that’s why I wrote this blog post and it’s why I’m sharing all this with you.

Yes I’m scared but I still gonna post on here and spend some time working out and creating content. However this time I’ll remember my mistakes and learn from them, not let them take over.

So.. I’m back guys! And so are the blogs, which really poses the question..

What are you scared to start? and what’s stopping you from doing it?

See ya soon,

April x

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